“I think he always had that button in there. That kind of self-destruction definitely accounted for his alcoholism and his drug use and the way he treated himself, the way he thought of himself. I can’t say that I’ve met anybody quite as fragile and almost comically freaked-out as Elliott.
A lot of his really close, old friends wouldn’t hear from him for months, years at a time. It wasn’t him being a rock star, or being too busy – Elliott kind of always had this aspect to him that was just crawling out of his own skin.
In Portland we got the brunt of Elliott’s initial depression.We saw that a long time ago. Lots of people have stories of their own experiences of staying up with Elliott ‘til five in the morning, holding his hand, telling him not to kill himself.
I don’t think that anybody was really surprised, to be honest, that knew him from around here. If there’s anything that people are freaked out about, or affected by, it’s definitely the brutality of his act.”